So this letter is supposed to be about my dreams, eh? My dreams are as vast and numerous as the hairs on my gelding, Ringo. I have so many dreams and things I want to accomplish before I kick the bucket. I would love to travel parts of the world and ride a horse on the beach. Visit historical houses and forts and places in the United States and gain a better understanding to our rich history. I want to meet influential people and get their take on life and success. I want to have a family and be an important part of someone's life.
I know in my head and heart that some of these dreams are accessible and can be easily accomplished should I put myself into it. The others, may be a bit of a stretch, but if I work hard enough and really really want it, then there is no reason they too, shouldn't be true. There are things I need to learn and experience before I get to some of these dreams, but I know that those experiences will make me a better, more rounded person. Besides, who doesn't want awesome stories to tell their grandchildren? I know I certainly do.
These dreams and aspirations are what keep me kicking and striving to do my best. If I excell in the present, what's to say I won't excell in the future? I have the drive and ambition to make what I want happen, happen. Nothing is going to hold me back for long.
Don't go anywhere, dreams and aspirations. You don't want to miss out.
XOXO
Me
Friday, July 23, 2010
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Dearingest Darlingest Momma and Popsicles
There's been some confusion here at Shiz. But of course I'll care for Nessa. But of course I'll rise above it. No, not the wonderful musical Wicked. :D
I was wondering what these past 20 years have been like, raising me and watching me "grow" up. But then I figured that the story that would encompass my life thus far, would be much too long and probably somewhat not entertaining. At least not for me. Only kidding. When you bring up stories from the past, they are usually hilariously funny, "that was so not me" moments where Jordan or I try to deny the inevitable. I still can not remember for the life of me saying "It's the cows!" in the car when not wanting to own up to what I did.
I know these past 20 years have not been easy. I am not a poster child and probably never will be. But I did try to make it easier than most. I had a great up bringing and wouldn't be who I am today with out you guys. The countless times you took me to school or picked me up from band practice to the millions of horse shows we attended. Dad- I know the horses aren't you're favorite things in the world, but having you there pretty much every step of the way was great. I have some pretty awesome pictures taken and I could always count on you for a non competitive view on the competition. Mom- Thanks for slaving away in the hot sun with me and driving me everywhere for shows. Even being bucked off by Ringo at a show, once he did that with you, he never did it again. I am very gracious of the time and energy you spent for that.
There are some things I've taken from you guys. Dad- The love of music like Prince, Jimi Hendrix, Marvin Gaye, and Earth Wind and Fire. To collecting mustangs and other awesome muscle cars and every time I see a Police Cruisers, I wonder if you have it in your collection. I also have "inherited" your love of photography. Trying to take pictures of beautiful things and capturing the sight. I will always love your sense of humor, whether mom thinks it's appropriate or not. :) She has her moments though.
Mom-You have rubbed off on me in more ways than you know. First of all, no one's (and I repeat) no one's meatloaf is as good as yours is. I miss it and wish you could send it in a box. Also, I have found myself watching shows like CSI and NCIS more and more, wondering if you've seen that episode. And, not so suprisingly to you, I have found myself missing the pool at home. Having to drive to one here just isn't as fun.
Thank you for putting up with me countless times and being as strict and "mean" as you were. I believe I have grown up with morals and views of what are wrong and right, and manners that many of today's youth are lacking. I got those from you guys and how you felt the need to pass them on. College has been different, but I have enjoyed getting a chance to see what the real world is like. I love you!
XOXO
Jess
I was wondering what these past 20 years have been like, raising me and watching me "grow" up. But then I figured that the story that would encompass my life thus far, would be much too long and probably somewhat not entertaining. At least not for me. Only kidding. When you bring up stories from the past, they are usually hilariously funny, "that was so not me" moments where Jordan or I try to deny the inevitable. I still can not remember for the life of me saying "It's the cows!" in the car when not wanting to own up to what I did.
I know these past 20 years have not been easy. I am not a poster child and probably never will be. But I did try to make it easier than most. I had a great up bringing and wouldn't be who I am today with out you guys. The countless times you took me to school or picked me up from band practice to the millions of horse shows we attended. Dad- I know the horses aren't you're favorite things in the world, but having you there pretty much every step of the way was great. I have some pretty awesome pictures taken and I could always count on you for a non competitive view on the competition. Mom- Thanks for slaving away in the hot sun with me and driving me everywhere for shows. Even being bucked off by Ringo at a show, once he did that with you, he never did it again. I am very gracious of the time and energy you spent for that.
There are some things I've taken from you guys. Dad- The love of music like Prince, Jimi Hendrix, Marvin Gaye, and Earth Wind and Fire. To collecting mustangs and other awesome muscle cars and every time I see a Police Cruisers, I wonder if you have it in your collection. I also have "inherited" your love of photography. Trying to take pictures of beautiful things and capturing the sight. I will always love your sense of humor, whether mom thinks it's appropriate or not. :) She has her moments though.
Mom-You have rubbed off on me in more ways than you know. First of all, no one's (and I repeat) no one's meatloaf is as good as yours is. I miss it and wish you could send it in a box. Also, I have found myself watching shows like CSI and NCIS more and more, wondering if you've seen that episode. And, not so suprisingly to you, I have found myself missing the pool at home. Having to drive to one here just isn't as fun.
Thank you for putting up with me countless times and being as strict and "mean" as you were. I believe I have grown up with morals and views of what are wrong and right, and manners that many of today's youth are lacking. I got those from you guys and how you felt the need to pass them on. College has been different, but I have enjoyed getting a chance to see what the real world is like. I love you!
XOXO
Jess
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
To Whom It May Concern:
So I'm not really sure if you know who you are... But you are the guy who has caught me eye. Both eyes I suppose, and my mind, and my attention, and it is a bugger. You are one awesome person and today, I was going to tell you, that, well I like you. BUT you weren't at work and therefore, I was spared the BIGGEST heart attack of my life! So I can thank you for kind of saving my life.
I still plan on telling you. When and how have not been figured out yet. You have caused me to overthink every little interaction and thing that has been said and it's a pain in the butt. But I know you're worth it. I just have to work up the nerve to let you know and put the ball in your court.
I once read a book, and one of the characters was "in a twist" about another character, and I had no clue what that meant. Then you walked through those kitchen doors last year in October, and I have understood completely what that author meant. I find myself wanting to talk to you in the plant, but my brain shuts down around you and I find myself either acting like an idiot or some "snob" and I know both are not qualities most guys like in a girl. But I never know what to say and feel that saying nothing at all is a better alternative than rambling on about the temperature of the reel oven. Which is something I'd do. I usually find myself walking out of the plant and shaking my head, asking myself what that was and why I couldn't talk to you. Our conversations have grown longer since the first time and I find myself looking forward to seeing you in the morning, liking the somewhat exhuberant "Hellos" or "Hey there!"s that you always say when you see me.
I'm just going to have to get over this whole "hot guy broken mind" thing if I want to talk to you and see what's going to happen. We'll see what it's like when I come back to work! I suppose that's all!
Adios,
Me
I still plan on telling you. When and how have not been figured out yet. You have caused me to overthink every little interaction and thing that has been said and it's a pain in the butt. But I know you're worth it. I just have to work up the nerve to let you know and put the ball in your court.
I once read a book, and one of the characters was "in a twist" about another character, and I had no clue what that meant. Then you walked through those kitchen doors last year in October, and I have understood completely what that author meant. I find myself wanting to talk to you in the plant, but my brain shuts down around you and I find myself either acting like an idiot or some "snob" and I know both are not qualities most guys like in a girl. But I never know what to say and feel that saying nothing at all is a better alternative than rambling on about the temperature of the reel oven. Which is something I'd do. I usually find myself walking out of the plant and shaking my head, asking myself what that was and why I couldn't talk to you. Our conversations have grown longer since the first time and I find myself looking forward to seeing you in the morning, liking the somewhat exhuberant "Hellos" or "Hey there!"s that you always say when you see me.
I'm just going to have to get over this whole "hot guy broken mind" thing if I want to talk to you and see what's going to happen. We'll see what it's like when I come back to work! I suppose that's all!
Adios,
Me
Monday, July 19, 2010
Dear Bestie Ever,
Ok, so I've been fortunate enough to have several people I would call my "best friends". While naming them wouldn't be the best decision ever, I will thank each of them personally.
K- I've known you since elementary school, I never really got to know you until we moved to middle school and were in the same classes and teacher groups. It all started right then and there and I never knew what a BIG deal you were going to be in my life. We stuck together like glue and paper and really never left each other until I moved and switched high schools. Now while I did that, we never grew apart and every time we hung out, it was like I had never left. I think about you all the time and I wonder to myself everytime I see something that had to do with us, "When she sees this, does she think of me too?" and I tell myself, I'll remember this story to tell her. Even though usually, I never do. I'm so glad I take the time to hang with you when I come down to Arizona, now we just have to get you up here to Nebraskii :D I love you sooooo much!
K- The other K... Who knew when I first sat down in her English class,that I would become such great friends... no, scratch that, ASAINS with the girl who was her T.A.? I'm pretty sure I had an idea when I saw you reading that Sarah Dessen book. I knew then it was destined.We spent sooo much time together my three years at AAEC, that I looked back to before I came and I wondered where you had been. Being able to be our rediculous selves and chill...sometimes melt, in your truck in the parking lot, while talking about Babblefish or Gerard Butler or some song on the JohnJay and Rich show, to eating ice cream at your house and having your dad ask me, if I brush my teeth. It was such a refreshing change from everything that I was used to and I grew to love it. I still miss those days we did nothing but write our story, which we still need to finish, and watch a movie. I love youuu!
D-I veiw you as the closest thing to a sister I have. We have so much in common and we can talk about ANYTHING! I ask you so many questions bout guys and ponies and art that I should be paying you! You are someone that I will talk to forever and ever! I want you to be in that wedding! I value your friendship more than you can ever know. I wouldn't be the person I am today with out your influence.
To everyone else I love, thank you so much for being a part of my life. You all played a part up to now and I thank you for it!
xoxo
Me :)
K- I've known you since elementary school, I never really got to know you until we moved to middle school and were in the same classes and teacher groups. It all started right then and there and I never knew what a BIG deal you were going to be in my life. We stuck together like glue and paper and really never left each other until I moved and switched high schools. Now while I did that, we never grew apart and every time we hung out, it was like I had never left. I think about you all the time and I wonder to myself everytime I see something that had to do with us, "When she sees this, does she think of me too?" and I tell myself, I'll remember this story to tell her. Even though usually, I never do. I'm so glad I take the time to hang with you when I come down to Arizona, now we just have to get you up here to Nebraskii :D I love you sooooo much!
K- The other K... Who knew when I first sat down in her English class,that I would become such great friends... no, scratch that, ASAINS with the girl who was her T.A.? I'm pretty sure I had an idea when I saw you reading that Sarah Dessen book. I knew then it was destined.We spent sooo much time together my three years at AAEC, that I looked back to before I came and I wondered where you had been. Being able to be our rediculous selves and chill...sometimes melt, in your truck in the parking lot, while talking about Babblefish or Gerard Butler or some song on the JohnJay and Rich show, to eating ice cream at your house and having your dad ask me, if I brush my teeth. It was such a refreshing change from everything that I was used to and I grew to love it. I still miss those days we did nothing but write our story, which we still need to finish, and watch a movie. I love youuu!
D-I veiw you as the closest thing to a sister I have. We have so much in common and we can talk about ANYTHING! I ask you so many questions bout guys and ponies and art that I should be paying you! You are someone that I will talk to forever and ever! I want you to be in that wedding! I value your friendship more than you can ever know. I wouldn't be the person I am today with out your influence.
To everyone else I love, thank you so much for being a part of my life. You all played a part up to now and I thank you for it!
xoxo
Me :)
Sunday, July 18, 2010
The List
So I am going to write a note every day for the next 30 days in letter form about/to these people.
day 1 — your best friend
day 2 — your crush/boyfriend/girlfriend
day 3 — your parents
day 4 — your sibling (or closest relative)
day 5 — your dreams
day 6 — a stranger
day 7 — your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
day 8 — your favorite internet friend
day 9 — someone you wish you could meet
day 10 — someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
day 11 — a deceased person you wish you could talk to
day 12 — the person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
day 13 — someone you wish could forgive you
day 14 — someone you’ve drifted away from
day 15 — the person you miss the most
day 16 — someone that’s not in your state/country
day 17 — someone from your childhood
day 18 — the person that you wish you could be
day 19 — someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
day 20 — the one that broke your heart the hardest
day 21 — someone you judged by their first impression
day 22 — someone you want to give a second chance to
day 23 — the last person you kissed
day 24 — the person that gave you your favorite memory
day 25 — the person you know that is going through the worst of times
day 27 — the friendliest person you knew for only one day
day 28 — someone that changed your life
day 29 — the person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
day 30 — your reflection in the mirror
thanks Chels!
xoxo
day 1 — your best friend
day 2 — your crush/boyfriend/girlfriend
day 3 — your parents
day 4 — your sibling (or closest relative)
day 5 — your dreams
day 6 — a stranger
day 7 — your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
day 8 — your favorite internet friend
day 9 — someone you wish you could meet
day 10 — someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
day 11 — a deceased person you wish you could talk to
day 12 — the person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
day 13 — someone you wish could forgive you
day 14 — someone you’ve drifted away from
day 15 — the person you miss the most
day 16 — someone that’s not in your state/country
day 17 — someone from your childhood
day 18 — the person that you wish you could be
day 19 — someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
day 20 — the one that broke your heart the hardest
day 21 — someone you judged by their first impression
day 22 — someone you want to give a second chance to
day 23 — the last person you kissed
day 24 — the person that gave you your favorite memory
day 25 — the person you know that is going through the worst of times
day 27 — the friendliest person you knew for only one day
day 28 — someone that changed your life
day 29 — the person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
day 30 — your reflection in the mirror
thanks Chels!
xoxo
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